Jeez!!!

I truly am bad at blogging!! I really need a dummy's guide to proper blogging and actually blog often n not just randomly every now n then. Well, last posting in Feb and it's now... Nov!! Jeez!! It really has been that long!! But things have changed n alot if things have happen n changes had to happen in order for me to survive n be a better person!! But more of that later on. I've also lost alot of weight n am able to fit back into 2 XL clothes, from 4 XL!! Which is a wonderful achievement for me!! But later on that as well!

Reflections

The past One year and 2 months have seen many ups and downs for myself. I've had a good share of fun times, as well having really dark moments in my life.

I'm enjoying my work, getting a good salary and making ends meet. On the other hand, my social is now officially at level Zero. It no longer exist!

My parents are happy, my sister got married, and I have never been more proud to have been a part of this.

While I smile at this, I wonder, what about my life? It has been in shambles for far to long, and everytime I try to mend things, it gets worse. Maybe I am doin wrong? I have tried to be diplomatic, fight back, negotiate, but nothing seems to be working. The only option that would make things happy for the pther party, is if I were to completely surrender.

And by complete surrender is to give up my job and work for their choice of company, no going out with any friends, no facebooking, no meeting my parents or sister, giving full control of my wages over.

and its not something I want.