This is my road to redemption.
Aum is the last. The door that starts my path to my glory. The path that will cleanse me and I shall attain forgiveness at the very end.
I was busy playing around and letting myself go. I took the easy way and spent money like it meant nothing. I gain weight, lost myself to drinking.
Then I met her. Something moved in my heart. I did not understand. I allowed my buddy to talk and hang out with her. I was too busy making out with another girl in front of her.
I was high, drunk and did not have a care in this world then.
Later on, every time we met, my heart kept hurting. I felt anger at how she was treated by my buddy. I felt ashamed for not standing up for her. In the end, this hurt took the better of me and I told him off. I put a stop to the nonsense, and took her with me.
Since then I have been with her and only her. I have no interest in any other girl. I only care about this beautiful lady sitting beside me, in my arms and I want to protect her from the entire world and it's cruelness.
I cannot imagine not being with her and at the same time, I am not the best she deserves.
I am run down, haggard, shell of the man I used to be. I am broke, in debt, drunk, over weight and what could I have to offer her.
I have been so lost in my thoughts until last night.
Was it a dream? A conversation?
It was more like a path being shown. A road to redemption for this sinner.
I have not been good to anyone including myself.
I am a talker. Talking the talk but never doing the action.
But now I have my path.
I have my direction.
My first punishment has been set.
The glutton in me needs to be punished and killed for this is the righteous path that I am.
I need to bring myself into the path and to stay on it.
I need to grow up and be the man that is worthy of her.
This is Day 1.
And there is many days to go until my end reaches me.
